Challenging
Last year when I decided to quit smoking, drastically change my diet and start a regular exercise routine all at the same time it seemed to come so easily for me. In fact, I stayed pretty strict about it, often times going to the gym every day as well as going for a walk with my kids most days as well. Eating mostly fruits, veggies and lean meat, and only eating dairy and grains in moderation. I was able to keep my sweet tooth under control with watermelon and the occasional pack of Reese Pieces. I even managed to stick to a healthy sleep schedule for a good amount of time.
Then, the holidays came and it all fell apart as I used our busy schedule and the typical holiday stress as an excuse to allow more processed foods to seep into our everyday diet.
By the time the new year rolled around we were pretty much right back where we started.
Then, I had surgery and lots of doctor’s appointments to deal with a bone infection in my jaw. I was living part time at my dad’s for a month or so and our finances were incredibly tight. That is when any healthy habits we had left from the summer finally fell completely apart. I told myself we just needed to make it through this trial and then we would get right back on track. But it didn’t happen that way.
I am really trying. I haven’t completely given up at all. But, I am really struggling too. This time around it is a real challenge. I feel completely lost on what to do. It seems like I keep finding myself making small exceptions to all my rules for no good reason.
I am really frustrated with myself, which only makes matters worse.
Regardless of all of this, I am gonna keep trying. I am going to keep trying different approaches until something clicks. Until something sticks. I might try juicing all day and eating dinner. I might try to start running again. I might go Paleo. Who knows what will finally kick my mind and body into a healthy gear?! But I just have to keep trying!
